Although I didn't feel good about what I did, the sense of guilt didn't stick with me long either. It was because I didn't have the memory of the incident. However, I believed the father said the truth. Did I really hurt the child? If I did, am I a bad person? Should I blame myself not being mindful of my actions? Should the parents have the responsibility as well to keep their child safe? Should I hold New York City accountable for desensitizing me to people around me? Or, should I be thankful that the father just came to me for an apology instead of revenge? I let the questions sit with my thoughts. I realized how much we habitually and sometimes chronically see things the way that we want to see rather than to see them as they are. It reminded me one of the Zen masters, Shunryu Szuzuki. In his book, Zen Mind, Beginner's Mind, he said: "The true purpose of Zen is seeing things as they are, to observe things as they are, and to let everything go as it goes. This is to put everything under control in its widest sense. Zen practice is to open up our small mind." I am not sure if my small mind has been opened yet, but I am reminded to be aware, to see the world around me as it is, and to learn how to stand in someone's shoes.