 It was another usual afternoon - sitting in a cafe to connect with the world behind a screen. I had what I called my ‘happily ever after’ set up - a cup of tea, a sandwich, music, headphones and my phone. I was enjoying my time until the incident happened: tea spilled onto my laptop! A guy sat next to me accidentally pushed my tea cup with his power cord while I was helping him to plug his laptop’s AC adaptor to the wall outlet. "Oops!" was my reaction. I ran to get tissue paper to soak the tea out right away. My laptop was still on, but after two minutes - BLACK OUT - It shut down! Oops!! I kept trying to dry it out - using the hand dryer in the bathroom, cleaning with more tissue papers for 10 minutes. I still could not bring it back to life. The guy deeply apologized a couple of times. I smiled and said, "It’s ok. Nothing we can do at this moment." I was seeing "what is" rather than "what was". I was aware of myself responding rather than reacting to the moment. And yet...it was just a laptop. There was no need to be upset about material things which can be replaced by another material thing like money. (Certainly, I still cherished my beloved machine.) Finally, I gave up...really nothing I can do, technically. When I was packing my things to leave, the guy offered to split the repair cost. Really!!? I said it in my mind. I was delighted and surprised with the offer. I expressed my appreciation and got his contact information. I left the café. My backpack was heavy, but my heart was light. "Hey, what was just happening?" my little voice was curious of the moments. I was, surprisingly, feeling joy and lightheartedness....and my ‘mind muscle’ was definitely stronger than I thought, since I was able to stay emotionally grounded, to respond ‘what needed to be done’ rather than react on an unproductive energy like anger, annoyance or frustration.The more we breathe mindfully, the more we smile peacefully. The more we are aware of our reaction to things, the more we expand our capacity to turn an unpleasant situation to a pleasant consequence. Life is so good to me as always. I really like my new laptop! Love and light, Mandy
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 Recently, a close friend of mine kept telling me I was a turtle in my past life. I was confused and asked for the reason. (Once, he told me I was an Indian goddess. Now, I was a turtle!?) Turtle is symbol of uniting heaven and earth. The Chinese, Indians have a legend that "the world is supported by four elephants standing on a giant turtle." In Hindu religion, the turtle is considered to be the second incarnation of the powerful god Vishnu. Aesop's "The Tortoise and The Hare", demonstrates the tortoise's (and turtle's) virtues of being "sure and steady". Turtle also represents: love & protection, healing,knowledge, self contained, creative source, mother earth, informed decisions, planning and adaptability. Was I really a turtle? Do I have turtle-like qualities? What was that mean to me?
My friend didn’t give me a very satisfying answer. He just looked into my eyes and insisted:“I see it….you were a turtle.” Funny enough, isn’t it? However, he kept saying it couple times. It just drew my attention to think about what it was like to be a turtle. My friend doesn’t have any psychic ability or supernatural power. He is a logical, yet also very intuitive person. No matter whether he really saw my past or not, he drew my attention to research about this ancient animal. And yet, I always believe in him and his intuition. I admire people who listen to their inner voice, trust their feeling and follow the direction leading them to a better place. My friend is one of them; he listens to his true feelings to make ‘heart’ decisions in most of the time. In the Power of Myth, Joseph Campbell said: “(My general formula for my students is) follow your bliss and don’t be afraid, and doors will open where you didn’t know they were going to be.” We all intuitively know how to find our door no matter using a baby turtle step or a quantum leap. We just need to trust, relax, listen and follow. I was curious about how it was like being a turtle. The first thing I can think of the character of grand master Oogway in the movie animation - Kung Fu Panda 1. (Oogway is an English translation of ‘turtle’ in Cantonese) From the description of Wikipedia - The grand master Oogway was considered to be a sage. He also was reckoned as a god in the art of Kung Fu. He also encouraged Monkey to use compassion toward others than playing tricks to everyone. When he chose Po, the panda as the Dragon Warrior and convinced master Shifu to train him,he said: My friend, the panda will never fulfill his destiny, nor you yours until you let go of illusion of control. The most recurring proverb that Oogway recites is “There are no accidents.” Love it! I love this movie a lot. (And yet, the Kung Fu Panda 2 made me cry.) I am so touched by the meaning behind the story - to keep dreaming of something we are passionate with; to believe in ourselves without a doubt or fear; to see a person’s beauty from his/her action; to follow our bliss with diligence. Wait, so, was I a turtle? I think I find the answer from one the dialogues between Po and Oogway: Po: Maybe I should just quit and go back to making noodles. Oogway: Quit, don't quit? Noodles, don't noodles? You are too concerned about what was and what will be. There is a saying: yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the "present." Oogway, don’t Oogway? I just know I am a gift of myself and people around me. I am proud to be who I am in this present time and space. Love and light, Mandy |
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