 Recently, a close friend of mine kept telling me I was a turtle in my past life. I was confused and asked for the reason. (Once, he told me I was an Indian goddess. Now, I was a turtle!?) Turtle is symbol of uniting heaven and earth. The Chinese, Indians have a legend that "the world is supported by four elephants standing on a giant turtle." In Hindu religion, the turtle is considered to be the second incarnation of the powerful god Vishnu. Aesop's "The Tortoise and The Hare", demonstrates the tortoise's (and turtle's) virtues of being "sure and steady". Turtle also represents: love & protection, healing,knowledge, self contained, creative source, mother earth, informed decisions, planning and adaptability. Was I really a turtle? Do I have turtle-like qualities? What was that mean to me?
My friend didn’t give me a very satisfying answer. He just looked into my eyes and insisted:“I see it….you were a turtle.” Funny enough, isn’t it? However, he kept saying it couple times. It just drew my attention to think about what it was like to be a turtle. My friend doesn’t have any psychic ability or supernatural power. He is a logical, yet also very intuitive person. No matter whether he really saw my past or not, he drew my attention to research about this ancient animal. And yet, I always believe in him and his intuition. I admire people who listen to their inner voice, trust their feeling and follow the direction leading them to a better place. My friend is one of them; he listens to his true feelings to make ‘heart’ decisions in most of the time. In the Power of Myth, Joseph Campbell said: “(My general formula for my students is) follow your bliss and don’t be afraid, and doors will open where you didn’t know they were going to be.” We all intuitively know how to find our door no matter using a baby turtle step or a quantum leap. We just need to trust, relax, listen and follow. I was curious about how it was like being a turtle. The first thing I can think of the character of grand master Oogway in the movie animation - Kung Fu Panda 1. (Oogway is an English translation of ‘turtle’ in Cantonese) From the description of Wikipedia - The grand master Oogway was considered to be a sage. He also was reckoned as a god in the art of Kung Fu. He also encouraged Monkey to use compassion toward others than playing tricks to everyone. When he chose Po, the panda as the Dragon Warrior and convinced master Shifu to train him,he said: My friend, the panda will never fulfill his destiny, nor you yours until you let go of illusion of control. The most recurring proverb that Oogway recites is “There are no accidents.” Love it! I love this movie a lot. (And yet, the Kung Fu Panda 2 made me cry.) I am so touched by the meaning behind the story - to keep dreaming of something we are passionate with; to believe in ourselves without a doubt or fear; to see a person’s beauty from his/her action; to follow our bliss with diligence. Wait, so, was I a turtle? I think I find the answer from one the dialogues between Po and Oogway: Po: Maybe I should just quit and go back to making noodles. Oogway: Quit, don't quit? Noodles, don't noodles? You are too concerned about what was and what will be. There is a saying: yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the "present." Oogway, don’t Oogway? I just know I am a gift of myself and people around me. I am proud to be who I am in this present time and space. Love and light, Mandy
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I love summer: taking time off, slowing down the pace, getting close to nature and doing whatever I want spontaneously – that is my beloved summer. Most importantly, summer reminds me how much I LOVE MYSELF. Acceptance is the highest form of love. When we love ourselves, we accept who we are, the good and the bad. We enjoy people, places and everything that around us. We are able to receive and share with others. We are willing to take risks and expand our horizon to create the life we want to have. When we face the challenge of life, like being poor, sick, under-confident, depressed, rejected or betrayed, the feeling is so real and so painful. How can we accept “what is” and love ourselves unconditionally? I certainly had those moments. My mind felt like waves tumbling around in the sea of negativity. The more I focused on feeling bad, the deeper I was drowning in the darkness of self-destruction. I struggled to swim, having to choose between being a victim of my ‘misfortune’ or being a warrior for seeing hope again. My self-disapproval and criticism exhausted my mind and my heart. I could not see who I was until I heard the whisper of peace and ease. I had no choice but to let go of trying to control “what should be”, to forgive the past, to appreciate my pain and to find hope again. It took me a while to recognize the purpose of my negative emotions and to learn how to float skillfully in the constant ebb and flow of change. In the healing process, I accept who I am moment to moment. Self-help books, meditation, spiritual classes and physical exercises are great tools to re-evaluate, re-organize and re-pattern our habitual thoughts. When we want to make change in life, the first thing is to change our thoughts – to surrender, to forgive, to appreciate, to accept and to love. I love you and love to be ME. Life is so good to me as always. Namaste, Mandy :)  |
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