 Happy belated Thanksgiving! Hope you all had a jolly time with your friends and family. A holiday not only for turkey and pumpkin pie, Thanksgiving is a special day to slow down our pace, get together with friends and family, take time to both share and appreciate the people and things that keep us going and growing throughout the year.
If we had to write down one thing to be thankful for each day, I would have over 13200 people and things I have appreciated since the day that I was born: my PE teacher in 4th grade who got me into the summer gymnastic workshop, my mom’s chicken wings and homemade soup, the first time I got an 'A' in the Chinese composition, my beloved dance teacher, Ms. Ng, who inspired me to pursue a professional training as a dancer, (and the amazing teachers before and after), the first time went to Six Flags with my funny, crazy friends, the first time my heart was broken, the first time held my newborn nephew in my arms, the first time I used my second language, English to teach the dance class in Brooklyn; the first time I used an iPod, my first conversation with a new friend, the first time I understood unconditional love and many more. Whether the object of my appreciation is big or small, pleasant or unpleasant, ordinary or extraordinary, it becomes a color in the rainbow of my life. It gives me hope and excitement, each like a star, sparkling and shining, in the darkness of the sky. I no longer feel alone when I am down, but am embraced by the universe with love, support and contentment. Meanwhile, I remember the appreciation that I have received. Thank you! You warm my heart. I smile and smile again. Life is so good to me as always. I am thankful every day. Namaste, Mandy :)
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 Over the past two weeks, I have been writing a new blog - HERO AND ROMANCE. The reason was: I am looking for both in my life. No matter how hard I tried to puzzle the words “up-side-down” or “inside-out”, I still was not able to organize my words solidly. After the sixth draft, my mind was exhausted. I literally sat there criticizing myself: “You can’t write…I wish I was a writer….how come you started to write a blog?” I was at the moment of feeling frustrated and disappointed. I imagined myself sitting at the bottom of a ‘hopeless’ well, looking up helplessly, waiting for someone – a hero to get me out of this deep dark hole. Have you had the moment like getting stuck in traffic? You cannot go forward or return back – not in the past, not in the future, not even in the present. The only thing you can do is to wait and hope for the best will come soon.
It did take me quite a while to recover from the last relationship. Searching for a new love makes one vulnerable, emotional and doubtful. I had all kinds of thoughts that holding me back. I was haunted by the fear in the past. I had moments of drowning in frustration and unworthiness. The more I was focused on the lack, the more I was falling back down to the ‘hopeless’ well. However, when I have doubt, I ask myself: What makes me feel loved with or without a lover? What make me feel happy regardless what situation I am in – pleasant or unpleasant, accompanied or lonely, fulfilled or empty? After an unmotivated and unproductive week, I heard my strength, courage and ability so clearly. I pick up my thoughts and write again. I no longer want to hide; I no longer hold any doubt to fall in love again. I AM THE HERO and I AM THE ROMANCE of my own life. Everything starts from within our minds. I have to remember. Romance could be a love at first sight, young with older love, unrequited love, obsessive love, sentimental love, spiritual love, forbidden love, passionate love, sacrificial love and tragic love. You would not know how the story goes until you start one. No matter which type of romance you are fond of. You just go for the flow and hope for the best. Romance magically happens because of who we are and the trust in life. It is exciting, fun, mysterious, spontaneous and adventurous. The best love story needs a right time, right place and right person. However, the most important part is the right feeling to attract the love that is right for you. I think I get the right formula. Just be, right here and right now. Love and light, Mandy |
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