 Over the past two weeks, I have been writing a new blog - HERO AND ROMANCE. The reason was: I am looking for both in my life. No matter how hard I tried to puzzle the words “up-side-down” or “inside-out”, I still was not able to organize my words solidly. After the sixth draft, my mind was exhausted. I literally sat there criticizing myself: “You can’t write…I wish I was a writer….how come you started to write a blog?” I was at the moment of feeling frustrated and disappointed. I imagined myself sitting at the bottom of a ‘hopeless’ well, looking up helplessly, waiting for someone – a hero to get me out of this deep dark hole. Have you had the moment like getting stuck in traffic? You cannot go forward or return back – not in the past, not in the future, not even in the present. The only thing you can do is to wait and hope for the best will come soon.
It did take me quite a while to recover from the last relationship. Searching for a new love makes one vulnerable, emotional and doubtful. I had all kinds of thoughts that holding me back. I was haunted by the fear in the past. I had moments of drowning in frustration and unworthiness. The more I was focused on the lack, the more I was falling back down to the ‘hopeless’ well. However, when I have doubt, I ask myself: What makes me feel loved with or without a lover? What make me feel happy regardless what situation I am in – pleasant or unpleasant, accompanied or lonely, fulfilled or empty? After an unmotivated and unproductive week, I heard my strength, courage and ability so clearly. I pick up my thoughts and write again. I no longer want to hide; I no longer hold any doubt to fall in love again. I AM THE HERO and I AM THE ROMANCE of my own life. Everything starts from within our minds. I have to remember. Romance could be a love at first sight, young with older love, unrequited love, obsessive love, sentimental love, spiritual love, forbidden love, passionate love, sacrificial love and tragic love. You would not know how the story goes until you start one. No matter which type of romance you are fond of. You just go for the flow and hope for the best. Romance magically happens because of who we are and the trust in life. It is exciting, fun, mysterious, spontaneous and adventurous. The best love story needs a right time, right place and right person. However, the most important part is the right feeling to attract the love that is right for you. I think I get the right formula. Just be, right here and right now. Love and light, Mandy
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It was sad to hear about Steve Jobs passed away on Wednesday. I deeply admire Steve Jobs’ genius mind, his vision, his story of creating a company that have been changing so many billions people’s lives around the world. I was so touched and inspired by the first Think Different “Here’s to the Crazy Ones” Apple commercial, narrated by Steve Jobs. The words at the end of the video stuck with me profoundly, “About the only thing that you can’t do is to ignore them" (Albert Einstein, Malcolm X, John Lennon, Thomas Edison, Dr. Martin Luther King, Mahatma Gandhi, Martha Graham and Jim Henson – those scientific genius, business giant, influential politicians and revolutionary artists), "…because they change things, they push human race forward... while some may see them as the crazy ones, we, see genius…because the people who crazy enough to think that they can change the world are the ones who do.” At the end of the commercial, the screen shows a quote - “Think different”. At the moment, I realized my life is nothing to compared with those influential people in history. However, in my heart, I hear so clearly that I am as important as any being in the universe. I CAN CHANGE THE WORLD. I can change the world around me with my thoughts. I can change other people's lives with my inner peace, love, forgiveness and compassion. If we believe our thoughts, we become our thoughts. We are powerful beings to create reality with thoughts - just think differently - choose between "I am an insignificant one" or "I am a magnificent one". Believe it - YOU ARE THE MAGNIFICENT ONE. YOU ARE THE CREATOR OF THE FUTURE. YOU CREATE A BEAUTIFUL WORLD AS YOU WISH FOR. Steve Jobs was definitely a ‘crazy one’ changed the world over and over again in his life time. (How many of you have enjoyed the fun, excitement and convenience of ipod, iphone and ipad? I am one of them.) He was one of the megamind geniuses who thought and did things differently. Each revolutionary thought, movement, invention is about breaking rules, abandoning the data, saying no to impossibility, thinking beyond imagination and trusting your heart. Steve Jobs, thank you for your inspiration and vision. We will never forget your magnificent spirit. Rest in peace. Love and light, Mandy |
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